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Three gerberas flowers,
Two souls,
One feeling.

Hi, Terence Danlag. By the time you're reading this, my Tiktok is already deleted so I won't be able to read your response. Thank you so much for sticking with me for months, the time I had with you is something that I will treasure forever in my heart because when the world decided to crumble before me, you were there to save me from my thoughts. I'm sorry if brokenness was the only thing I could offer you, but may you believe me when I say, I like you. I like you so much that sometimes I want you for myself, but who am I kidding? I can't do that. When Viego said, "She was the star that lit my path. Without her... darkness." I resonated with him so much. I am so full of darkness that when you came, my path lit up.I found a reason to wake up everyday just so I could see what songs you were posting or how your day was going or what silly tiktoks were you sending. I loved that you were comfortable enough to share what you were thinking, even when most of the time kailangan ko pa igoogle translate/search yung iba. I'm not leaving because you've caused me pain, you never did, but rather it's because I let my mind win over me. Diba sabi mo noon you were ready to play dirty and not tell me anything about you just so I would stay? I think I've known you enough now for me to leave. Si Terence na mahilig sa dark na color at kape. Si Terence na laging nagrerepost ng Cafe Racer na motor, sa totoo lang yan dream ko na motor noon pa pero nahiya lang ako mag bring up. Si Terence na n-word enjoyer at kulang nalang basbasan ko na ng holy water ang fyp, ewan ko bakit kita natolerate pet peeve ko kayo ng kuya ko hahaha. Si Terence na laging bumubuhat sa laro, naboost na naman tuloy ego mo neto haha. Si Pastor Terence at lover boy na iyakin minsan, ang cute mo mapikon sa totoo lang. And definitely, the Terence who values his circle of friends and despite being an introvert, he's still able to do things with courage. He even stayed up late for a stranger he barely even knew dahil pagod na pagod na siya sa buhay niya.I was in denial for quite a while, but that time when I dropped my guitar and excitedly ran towards my phone just so I could read your messages after you came back from your youth camp, I finally accepted the fact that I do have feelings for you. Every repost, I hoped it would reach you somehow. Yung mga crush posting ko doon, ikaw naman talaga pinaparinggan ko haha. Sobrang saya ko pa noong nag-match profile pics natin. When we played games, though I was bad at them, I was so happy because spending my time with you was like healing my inner child. Kahit malayo yung agwat ng edad natin, I never felt too old for you haha. But most especially in my vulnerable moments, I fell even harder. You're not hard to like after all.I don't have to hear your answer. I'm sorry for hurting you again. I don't deserve you. Please don't blame yourself, okay? It isn't your fault that I fell. You own your feelings, I own mine. It is my responsibility to handle this. I hope you won't question yourself this time kagaya noong nag deactivate ako. You've done so much for me. You don't have to waste your time on me anymore, someone else deserves you.Reach for greater heights. Though I may be absent, you will always be in my prayers. I pray that God's great plans for your life will prevail. I pray that you get what you always wanted, one step at a time. Don't give up on your dreams ha, I won't either. Take care of your health, ayoko maging pasyente kita in the future. Noong nagkasakit ka halos di ako mapakali kulang nalang lumipad ako jan sa General Trias haha... I can't even take care of myself. Eat on time, get enough sleep, rest when your body needs it, do well in your studies, and work out what God works for you. Always remember my fave verse, Jeremiah 29:11. God will guide you and have a bright future for you. The drawing above is an advance gift for when you graduate college :). I'm rooting for you. Live for your cats. Live for yourself. I am glad that way back in May 22, when I couldn't sleep from all the pain that caused me, the stars aligned for us to be online at the same time . My soft Terence, my countenance, thank you for your life.Sincerely,
Hannah Praise